yayye,
monday: zee/anbu and kel/leo shall have to go PCBUNK with me (:
no lag maps!
omgomgomg!
NO LAG!! (((((:
seriously.
IS DxK SO NICE TO TALK ABT?
stupid zee.
all because i made her run with me she says that she can post about
that in her lj.
can i please get a dose of sanity here before mine runs dry?
and dan is so freaking sick can.
wth.
and he gives puffy frequent flame complaints.
is he the one?
i need to ask myself.
IS HE THE ONE?
how can the one i want be so insensitive?
how can the one i want be so impassionate?
how can the one i want be so untruthful?
all in all,
how can the one i want be so not understanding?
does he understand me?
no,
i think smarty understands me more.
SIGHS.
-mixed emotions.
everything's screwed up.
werent you the most perfect thing ever?
till something came along.
and broke everything up.
wasnt that thing reality?
now the only thing we have to blame.
is ourselves.
why doesnt anyone understand the scorpio girl?
because scorp girls are mysterious?
hardly so.
we can be open to many people we are well acquainted with.
but to many,
we can be as cold as ever.
shall i open myself up?
or shall i keep myself shut?
to protect thyself,
i must not open myself.
to protect everyone else,
i must be strong.
to protect those i love,
i must defend.
but who'll be there to catch me if i fall?
nevermind,
a bit of crappiness and randomity.
but sometimes i do feel that way.
anyways,
today was such a
quiet day.
because
tab,marie and chantik weren't around!
they went to xiamen already!
-.-"
BORING DAY.
but MT today was funny.
got an old retired teacher.
haha.
she talk damn funny can.
i brought my sketchbook today.
i filled up a page.
writing the obsessive things that i do.
it's so freaky.
mika says that dan's changed me.
flame says that i'm just as violent as ever.
so,have i changed?
this is a side of me that i've never seen before.
the real scorp that lives inside me has been unleashed?
i really hope for my
happily ever afteryou can see that many of my wishlist is spiritual.
and not many are material.
material wants.
they arent really what we need.
spiritual enlightenment.
now that's what we should be aiming for.
tomorrow going to do one full day of fund-raising for the newspaper straits times again.
mika i cant believe you donated to the wrong organisation -.-"
but nevermind!
you can just donate again! ^^
okies enough crapping.
let's see what life throws at me tomorrow.
*infatuation lasts for moments,love lasts a lifetime
